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I feel like I don't really need to explain what happened. I feel like it's pretty...self explainatory. I am just really sick of people and I don't know how to voice it to them but I am really done with being treated how I am.

I have really awesome friends who want to be included in my life. Like Matt and Anna, and Jamie. Joe, Dan. Amber and a bunch more people, but those are the people who are very involved in my life and I am lucky for them. :]
 

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A few things.
1) Snow Day
which equals alright/ ultra bum day.
2) Valentine's Day
i have new outlook on V-Day because of Dan
3) My Family knows i'm dating Dan
i didn't know how to tell my family... so it's kinda exciting.
This is an important day.
<3

So anyways.
i'm sick. which isn't cool.
i'm missin' my Corina, which also isn't cool.
mom's watching 24 but the music sounds like the music from Ferngully, which now i want to watch.

I'm making a list of movie's that Dan and i are going to have to see.
I can't think of anything right now.
maybe 
1.Vanilla Sky 
or something scary so i can cuddle up with him.
hehehe.

i had a whole lot more to say, but i don't remember anymore.
dad got us chocolate, and it's good stuff.
aww i loves him.
<333

off to go do school work or something till 9 cause then i can call Dan back,
and we have a two hour delay tomorrow,
i think.
:]


oh yeah. i'm also hoping to finish CupCake this week sometime.
I dunno why i can't get through it though.
And i have to remember to give Dan Gingerbread.
he said he'd read it.
<3
i love that boy.
he's so wonderful to me.

ahh i miss him. i just want to hug him and kiss him and love him.

*grumbles*
there better be school tomorrow.
two hour delay, pleeaseeee!
<3

okay. head hurts. gonna go.
baiii.

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

here's some of my sucky poetry and haiku's and stuff.

Scientists are nearing the next step in DNA technology, they have mapped almost the entire human genome. What did they find to be common in every human? “Junk DNA.” They have not been able to find any function that this DNA provides.

I have found that this DNA may not be junk at all, but could code for psychic abilities. This may sound like something out of a 50’s B movie, but it has been documented. The military and government have had programs focusing on telekinesis and remote viewing. The results were never made public of course, but they still conducted them.

Many of the people who report to have these abilities happen to be abductees. This is what leads me to believe that the portions of our DNA that supposedly serve no function, control the other portions of our brain which we do not use. We currently use only 10% of our brains, so who is to say that other portions that have been dormant throughout our evolutionary advancement don’t control esp, telekinesis, remote viewing, etc?

Why abductees? Simple, one of the current theories as to why the aliens are abducting people is to create an alien/human hybrid race that will have the abilities of both species. Many abductees have reported that the aliens do not speak with their mouths, but through telepathy. It seems that after repeat abductions, many people gain similar abilities. If the aliens are trying to make a change in human evolution, what better way that to reactivate these dormant traits so that human beings will be able to have a cosmic awareness instead of just a global one?

Junk DNA that seems to have no function in our current state as a species may be in fact part of our creator’s original blue print. We have the ability to use other portions of our brains, instead our society has stunted our growth and prevented us from developing into a truly ideal society.

To put some personal experience into this theory, when I was younger, on several occasions, I had dreams that came true. I am not talking about some fairy tale crap, I mean interactions with people, places and events. I dreamt about a specific thing happening at school and the next day it happened.

I was raised catholic, and through my upbringing this ability, power, whatever you want to call it diminished to the point of non-existence. Once I gave up all religion and started investigating aliens and the paranormal, this ability has come back, and since my recent abduction experiences, it has been increasing ever since

I really do not appreciate over hearing peoples conversations about me.
i don't appreciate that they are talking about me in the first place.
i don't appreciate that they're always talking about me.
i don't appreciate the subject it's about.
i need to get a job.
i've told many people that i do.
everyone is aware of that, so there's no question.
someone said that i should get a job near by.
i personally thought it was a grand idea,
i'd be working with someone i knew... 
i wouldn't be around complete strangers.
i learn fast.
i knew how to work the cash registers at Adams.
that's just from being there on Sundays to see Corina.
:]
but i can't get a job where my sister is putting in an application
because apparently i'll slack off and make everyone else do my job.
because i'm lazy... apparently.
that is fucking bullshit.
i'd never do that at a job.
i just think that's fucking rediculous.
this is the fucking bullshit i'm talking about. I get bitched at because i don't a job,
and then in a conversation it's said that i should get an application there,
and then i'm not allowed to.
I'm gonna talk to Wuzina or someone and ask if they need any help anywhere.
even if it doesn't pay,
just so i can get out of this fucking house.

and i was just sent to my room
well guess why.

because my mom thought it'd be a fucking swell idea to make cookies for friends cause we're poor.
so i was like ,yah cool cool.
and Kelsey made a list apparently of cookies she wants.
and mom told me to make mine.
so i go out to the kitchen and look at the paper,
which is really effin small and there's no room to write the ingredience list on the back,
so i rewrite ALL of it onto another sheet of paper,
which i didn't have to do,
but i didn't want to cram it all on this tiny paper.
nor did i want to hear my mom bitching about how she can't read all of it.
so i thought i'd fix the problem right then.

and i went out and explained it to her just like this:
mom, kelsey started a list of cookies she wants but she put it on this small sheet of paper and i didn't realize on the back of the sheet was where we were putting the ingredience i accidently wrote it on the front, and i ran out of room so i just rewrote it all onto a different piece of paper, so there'd be more room. i hope that isn't a problem.

and that bitch says:
Oh i don't know what the hell you did to it.

to which i think to myself, it wasn't really that diffucult to understand if she was really listening, and i get mad and i say to her:
it's not that difficult, did you just listen to what i just told you?

and then she actually turned away from her computer to look at me and tell me to go to my room.

and i walked away, muddered bitch, gave her the middle finger and went to my room.
which is where i am sitting now.
hoping her computer will spontanously combust.


so i am not happy. which doesn't really make a difference because this is how it is here everyday.
everything is my fault, or my sisters and brother, or my dads fault. never my mom.
selfish bitch.

so i'm going to go, and try and find a job.
so i don't have to ever be home.


and this is a shame, because i had a good horoscope today too, and i got to wear M.D.R.'s hoodie <3 annnd i saw Pretty Eyes. [aka my crushes]

okay bye.

So yesterday was my 18th birthday.
i feel so old.
**ahhh!**
it was really good though.
i got cupcakes from Jill
along with a very cute bracelette which i adore,
and ma and Joe gave me 20 bucks.
Corina got me a really neat candle with skulls on it,
and three star bracelettes, pink, black and green.
i love my gifts <3
thank you both for being so awesome!!!

&& for dinner we went to Olive Garden.
mom and dad got me the John Mayer cd
which i adore like whoa,
they got me Vanilla Sky [the dvd incase you don't know what it is]
and flower lights for my room.
superr cool.
so it was an over all wonderful birthday.
oh yah! i can't forget,
and Sarah got me this really nice blue and crystal [fake obviously] bracelette.

))Yah i know lotsa bracelettes((


SO I JUST WANT TO THANK ANYONE WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!! &hearts;

some music ...

Pete Yorn -for you
Pink - u and ur hand
jessica simpson - i belong to me
lady sovereign - love me or hate me
Paula DeAnda - Walk away [remember me]
JoJo - Too little too late
Clay Aiken - Without you
Landon Pigg - can't let go
Stellastarr* - Sweet troubled soul
Black rebel Motorcycle club - ain't no easy way
imogen heap - goodnight and go

i am grounded.
basically.
i guess that's all i have to say.